Ohhh, Poor Baby

I really haven't been keeping up with the Oscar Pistorius murder case in South Africa, but today, he is testifying for the first time.
From ESPN: Fighting back tears, Oscar Pistorius began testifying at his murder trial on Monday by apologizing to the family of the girlfriend he shot dead.
The Olympic athlete also recalled the panic attacks he says he has suffered since he killed Reeva Steenkamp last year and described how he has nightmares that he has caused him to wake up to the "smell of blood."
"There hasn't been a moment since this tragedy happened that I haven't thought about your family," the double-amputee runner said as he addressed the courtroom and Steenkamp's mother, June, looked straight at him, stone-faced.
"I wake up every morning and you're the first people I think of, the first people I pray for ... I was simply trying to protect Reeva. I can promise that when she went to bed that night she felt loved," said Pistorius, stating the central part of his defense, that he shot Steenkamp by mistake, thinking she was an intruder in his bathroom.
Pistorius killed Steenkamp last year by shooting her in the head, arm and hip through a toilet door in his home. Prosecutors allege he intentionally killed her after a fight in the early hours of Feb. 14, 2013 and have sought to paint him as a hothead with an inflated sense of entitlement and an obsession with firearms.
In his testimony, Pistorius also said he is on antidepressant medicine and has trouble sleeping, and described one night when he went to hide in a closet after waking up in "a panic."
"I climbed into a cupboard and I phoned my sister to come and sit by me, which she did for a while," Pistorius said.
His testimony came on the day his defense opened its case and after legal experts said it was crucial to his case that he testify to explain why he shot Steenkamp. Pistorius faces 25 years to life in prison if convicted of premeditated murder for Steenkamp's killing.   http://espn.go.com/olympics/trackandfield/story/_/id/10742513/oscar-pistorius-trial-resumes-defense-opens-case
So, the guy has had some panic attacks and had his sister come and sit with him, and we are supposed to feel sorry for him?
And his apology?  I'm pretty sure the dead girl's family wasn't in the mood for the apology.
The one thing that bothers me in the case is that he shot through a closed door, not knowing what his target was, supposedly.  He says he didn't know she was in the bathroom, but don't you think he would have known she wasn't in the bed or bedroom when he got up and shot? And why didn't he call out to the person in the bathroom and tell them he would shoot if they didn't leave by the count of 2?  If he would have called out, his girlfriend would have answered, so no need to fire.
The guy has nerves of steel because he has gone a lot in his life and has competed in the Olympics, so it's not like he would be the type of person who would panic.
So, in the end, I would probably convict him but then, I am a few thousand miles away and am depending on the media to relay the story.